Get Out of Jail Free Card, anyone?

So many relationships in life.. most of them good. I like to think that since it takes two people to make a relationship that it's half up to me to do what I can to make it the best. I know i make mistakes all the time, but we all do. That's not an excuse, but it happens. So why have i lost 3 relationships in one month? Yeah, the first one i saw coming, and it was needed. It ended well, as part of a corrective plan. The second.. yeah i can see how that was my fault in a sense. But my third... still baffles me. It's not like I can change it, your mind is made, obviously. I just wish we spent more time learning communication. So i can at least figure out better what i should have done. I can only pray and continue my studies and hope for the best now. I become confused when i think about the sudden, unexpected end. One day was all it took, and it was initiated by a fight. How good was this relationship anyways, if all it took was one fight? I know it couldn't have been just that, there was something pent up, something that needed to be figured out. I didn't see it, maybe the other side did. What made me start writing now was that i was cleaning my desk off while i cleaned my room and i came across a letter. There was so much.... positiveness there. My good friend missed me (normal, right?). Now i don't have anything.. not even negativity. I have multiple postcards, letters, and a box full of goodies for my birthday. A line in a letter caught attention, this - " You really are one of my best friends, and i appreciate that." It's crazy how opposite a statement our relationship says now in relation to that statement. I held such a respectable place in your head, and now I'm someone you can't give the attention of a full sentence in a text now. I can only retrieve two options as to how this went down: either you're wrong now, or you were then. That's all i can think as to a definition to what you think of me now. Maybe there's more, i just can't say. I don't have the opportunity to ask anymore. I want to hear you again. I wish i had the time to say goodbye to the years and times we had, but it looks as though you have moved on. You've always had that ability. What a strong person you are. How beautiful you are becoming. Don't get me wrong, it's not the end of my world, not the end of a good day, not even the end of my focus on what i need to be focused on. This makes me stronger. I dedicate that to you now.
For the all the times i wanted to say it but knew it would do nothing- I hope you know what you're doing.
I can trust the fact it will all work out. I don't call you out for doing anything wrong, you're just doing what you know and believe is good. If so, I'm for it. I love you, I'll always be here. I seem to have a higher dedication to rejection ratio than ever before. Good lesson for life, right? I couldn't help but smile at the last thing you said to me in my letter. "I love you kenneth! Call me when you can :)" If only i could have saved this like a

Get Out of Jail Free Card.